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Since the age of 14 I’ve been as sure as one could be that by 25 I would be married with at least one baby and living in the country side spending my days tending to my children. Cooking, baking, going for long walks in the woods, singing and reading them to sleep every day and watching them grow up to be responsible adults. Alas I am working a 9-5 job at a place where I’d never have imagined myself in my wildest dreams at the age of 14 as I was going to be a singing mother.
Life has a way of not turning out as planned and you have to learn to play the hand dealt to you and I have as of yet not been lucky enough to meet my King of Hearts and I am still, Unmarried, in the city and have recently found out that I am running out of time to conceive a child on my own.
I am currently undergoing investigations to see what that mystical back pain I have been dealing with for over a year might be and it is looking more and more to be a form of Arthritis. This we know is not fatal so I am not actually running out of life time just days of my body being able to stand the strain of bearing a child.
As I envision my life as a mother a struggle to see a father in the picture, maybe this is because I grew up, oldest of five to a single mother and I have never found myself short in any way. My mother was a full time mother doing all that you’d expect a mother to do and while we was at school she worked and studied at the same time and still managed to pick us up from school, make us dinner and put us to bed to then get on with her own life.
All I know is that I want a child, someone to care for and nurture, someone to fuss over and make them smile, to teach life lessons and see the world through their eyes. I can’t promise I’ll be able to be super-,uber mum. But I can promise that I will do my best, to give this little life all that it needs, to grown up feeling safe in the knowledge that they are loved and cared for and try to instil that inner calm that will make them strong enough to embrace the world for all that it is.
I am looking for a donor, I am not sure to what extent I want you to be involved, it totally depends on who you are.
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